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When I embark in the journey of yoga teaching - I already know I have to put myself up there. I dont really like it. Once I was in theater group and we played King Lear - I was the the queen. It was for university competition. I practiced day and nights. All those as main character were playing theatrical since ages, I was not. It was the first year of mine doing theater. I was thrill. but also anxious.


I loved every minute of it, the preparation, the practice. It took me into different character, but as I wash my face each time after, with full makes up that went to the drain with water - there I saw my own face again. It was an interesting experience, the the spotlight in me and I could not see anything else except my partner I was dialog with - the King Lear. After that, I decided I did not want to be an actress. They offered few other character after, I simply said I prefer work behind the scenes - music, choreographic, settings, costumes, make ups, lighting, anything. Just not at the stage anymore.



In yoga, I love the teaching of it and enjoy each minutes of it - if I approached it not as performance but rather, simply trying to translate my knowledge and hand it over to those in front of me that willing to spend their time and money, to do just that. The feeling to see evey one grow, inside and outsied. Their practice. Their self worth. Their confidence. It by it own means giving reward that simply seen and feel right away that very moment.


The business of yoga - like the stage I had used to experience, is much more than the yoga itself. As business industry, it is very competitive. Each person try to brought their own things in the surfaces, their values, teaching, and what sells. And what sells, doesnt always sit right with me.


We sell the so call wellbeing industry with magic remedies - that hope in an instant we can fix anything everything. There is no such things, which I why sometime i found it difficult to sell things that I dont believe myself. Yoga is a repetitive practice - inside and outside the mat, in the body and in the mind. The physicalties is the doorway, asana is the medium. Its not the goal. So getting physically attractive in these so called yoga outfits is not the end point - although it is waht might appears repeatedly in many social media and advert. The serenity and equilibrium doesnt necessarily protray as big smiles, bubbly happy life. Often its those little things that contentment reach. Of being content in each moment in time in little day to day things. Of constantly being here and there in each breath. It means allowing the mind to wonder when its time to, and ability to brought in. The mat, is the gateway. The magic result, only happening gradually. Sometime - we can not even feel it.


The state in well being is not saying that we dont have anything bothering our life. Every one has. The weight of it, none of us can say one or another lighter than the rest. It just is. When its bothering us, it is bothering us. What we do with that, that define our wellbeing and how we take responsibility of our own wellbeing. Of our own life.



So either you are those queen or king that like to be in the spotlight all the time, or those prefer in the backgrounds - those who bubbly with big smiles or those simple smile watching simple things in daily life - those who do yoga for one reason or the other - notice that when we do it commitedly in and out of the mat, yoga is not merely about asana. And notice that - its easier to get attention with shouting, screaming, or laugh loudly, its much harder to do something just normally and but constantly good at it before you get noticed. Those good children often easier to stay in the background because the noughty one or the loud one or the one with bubly personality in the front, and slowly these children would fade away. Believe that constantly being just you - will make you noticed as you are.

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